Am I doing this right?
I don't know how long this entry will be as I've had a headache that I can't seem to shake for the past 10+ hours today. I've tried everything, so unless I just get going on something or find my way to a topic I'm unexpectedly passionate about, I expect this to be brief.
I am amazed by how much is on my mind, and how little I'm able to get done when I've forgotten my magical notebook of lists, chores, and tasks that need my attention. Nowhere was this in greater evidence than on Wednesday. Everything that could go wrong did, and along the way I managed to disappoint and anger people whom I truly value much more than my actions spoke to. From incessant back pain from a non-recovering pulled muscle, to an emergency food relocation due to a busted fridge, to fighting it out with technology and running so close to a massive deadline that I made myself over anxious, it was certainly not the day I had planned. I lived. I apologized profusely. Now I'm becoming more conscious about the need to move on and not dwell on the slip ups. At the end, the night didn't self destruct and what needed to be done got finished with a modicum of dignity.
Most importantly, I got to do what I love most about my job: I got to be amazed by the wonderful youth that I get to engage with. They are an absolutely amazing group, and I'm so blessed to be able to take the time to get to know each and every one of them personally. The video is something I'm hoping to post in the next week or so, but have been hit with one technical difficulty after another starting from its creation. It's far too big a file (over 20 min long + music) to plug in here, so I'm aiming to get it up on our church youth web page and get a link put here for anyone who comes back to read this if/when this blog goes public. Otherwise it'll be here for me when I come back to reminisce when I'm like, 80 and super bored.
I'm in the process of pulling together a list of potential people to sit on my discernment committee. While this is not a required step for application to YASC, throughout the couple of meetings I've been in to discuss this, it has seemed to be a step that would confirm my desires and reassure those who will be named as my senders. It also means I need to work on a Spiritual Biography to present to this group once we start meeting next month. I haven't even finished the actual application yet, and don't plan to submit it until I have a hint at diocesan support (should know after I meet with Bishop Smith in about a week and a half). Bottom line: way more work for me. Upside: I'll be REALLY prepared.
I've also got another meeting scheduled for tomorrow, with a current YASCer where I hope to ask some of my multitude of questions. I find that, as with almost any application I've ever done, there is never enough information easily accessible on a website. I've examined every page and attachment on the YASC page. I've combed nearly every blog I can get my hands on for current YASCers. I've read dozens of articles on sites with advice and suggestions for future missionaries. I still have tons of info I feel I need to know. My goal, however, is to have the application ready to hit submit immediately after my meeting with the bishop (and the diocesan canon for finance).
I'll bet $20 (that I don't really have) on the fact that I'm making this way harder on myself than it needs to be. And I'll readily go double or nothing that I probably need to relearn the lesson of "Let go and let God."
I am amazed by how much is on my mind, and how little I'm able to get done when I've forgotten my magical notebook of lists, chores, and tasks that need my attention. Nowhere was this in greater evidence than on Wednesday. Everything that could go wrong did, and along the way I managed to disappoint and anger people whom I truly value much more than my actions spoke to. From incessant back pain from a non-recovering pulled muscle, to an emergency food relocation due to a busted fridge, to fighting it out with technology and running so close to a massive deadline that I made myself over anxious, it was certainly not the day I had planned. I lived. I apologized profusely. Now I'm becoming more conscious about the need to move on and not dwell on the slip ups. At the end, the night didn't self destruct and what needed to be done got finished with a modicum of dignity.
Most importantly, I got to do what I love most about my job: I got to be amazed by the wonderful youth that I get to engage with. They are an absolutely amazing group, and I'm so blessed to be able to take the time to get to know each and every one of them personally. The video is something I'm hoping to post in the next week or so, but have been hit with one technical difficulty after another starting from its creation. It's far too big a file (over 20 min long + music) to plug in here, so I'm aiming to get it up on our church youth web page and get a link put here for anyone who comes back to read this if/when this blog goes public. Otherwise it'll be here for me when I come back to reminisce when I'm like, 80 and super bored.
I'm in the process of pulling together a list of potential people to sit on my discernment committee. While this is not a required step for application to YASC, throughout the couple of meetings I've been in to discuss this, it has seemed to be a step that would confirm my desires and reassure those who will be named as my senders. It also means I need to work on a Spiritual Biography to present to this group once we start meeting next month. I haven't even finished the actual application yet, and don't plan to submit it until I have a hint at diocesan support (should know after I meet with Bishop Smith in about a week and a half). Bottom line: way more work for me. Upside: I'll be REALLY prepared.
I've also got another meeting scheduled for tomorrow, with a current YASCer where I hope to ask some of my multitude of questions. I find that, as with almost any application I've ever done, there is never enough information easily accessible on a website. I've examined every page and attachment on the YASC page. I've combed nearly every blog I can get my hands on for current YASCers. I've read dozens of articles on sites with advice and suggestions for future missionaries. I still have tons of info I feel I need to know. My goal, however, is to have the application ready to hit submit immediately after my meeting with the bishop (and the diocesan canon for finance).
I'll bet $20 (that I don't really have) on the fact that I'm making this way harder on myself than it needs to be. And I'll readily go double or nothing that I probably need to relearn the lesson of "Let go and let God."
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